Fans congratulate actress Judy Ann Santos during the global premiere of the indie film Ploning at the Meralco Theatre, Monday. Ploning, a film by Panoramanila, is set in Cuyo Palawan and is based on a local folksong about a woman torn between following her first love and caring for a child named Digo.
For more information please visit www.ploningthemovie.com5.09.2008
5.06.2008
pesky house cats
Our newest addition to the zoo is this pesky little thing. Apprently, we have managed to make it to the most esteemed cat-lady repute in the village (think: old hags with hair rollers and a shower caps on). This vagrant was left at our doorstep by who knows who in a box with some rags to keep him warm . Majen called him Dexter after the TV character who is like the Robin Hood of the serial killing scene. Dexter the cat could never live up to Dexter the killer of serial killers, though. The cat is a hundred times more sloppy and without finesse than the TV character. He tumbles around all by his lonesome, bites all electrical cords he can find falls on his behind while climbing the stairs, poops everywhere and the cat s.t.i.n.k.s. no matter how often you wash him. Urgh, i tell you, the cat's disgusting. and it doesn't help at all that his favorite time to bite your toes and legs is when you're slaving away at your computer willing your creative juices to flow like a squeezed turmeric plant.
No, I don't like cats at all. And we have lots already. So please, if anyone would like to adopt this little thing, send me a message. We'd still like him to be in good hands 'coz okay, I admit, he's also cute and endearing in his own weird kind of way...
A confession: Majen is actually not sure whether to let Dexter go but she already has her Mootzie Bear, the original Queen Bitch who once had exclusive rights of her kingdom that is our flat, but now is being overshadowed and provoked by the little one. Also, she already bewails of spending PhP 200.00 plus weekly for cat food alone. Majen, for Mootzie Bear, Dexter must go. Mwahahaha (evil laugh).
3.27.2008
jobless northern forays
on the road to kanawan, an aeta community in morong, bataan. the energy in this place is just amazing.
punked with my friend lai on fieldwork. despite the wonderful dusk light when we arrived, i refrained from taking photos on my first visit save from this one shot which they requested i take. kuya joe and the gang seem quite happy and proud of their new uniforms. hope they win the league. :) hope i get to watch some of their games.
more on-the-road snaps here.
2.29.2008
quitting jobs and savage chickens
am now officially a bum! but it's still not sinking in. the past weeks have been a roller-coaster of emotions as i toggled feelings of elation from emancipation, fear of the unknown and of being broke, optimism and openness to new ventures and adventures, sadness at the thought of not seeing workmates as often as i did before, guilt at having to leave behind people who have given me a shot and who wanted me to continue the work of changing lives, worry about the future of my team both in the institute and in Payatas and excitement at having time-off from everything and discovering what i truly want.
now i'm calmer with the realization that i will not move on empty-handed. i would like to believe that three years in my first job in the field of social development have shaped me into a more compassionate, proactive, kinder, bolder, more confident, more competent more generous person. some people have been most supportive and inspiring too. but there comes a time in one's career when you know that it's time to move on. i do not always know when to launch into things. if anything, i am quite restrained and indecisive. but i always always know when it's time to leave. i have been let go (although with a tinge of sadness and regret) freely. and they let me and half of the staff go with a wish to be accompanied with God's quiet grace wherever we may be. for me, that is enough a prayer to give me courage for whatever lies ahead.
uhrm. on a funner (ha-ha-ha) note, I AM THRILLED to discover that doug savage made me a despedida cartoon. check it:
YEAHBOY!!! savage chickens is my favorite cartoon EVER and doug is just sooooo nice. I'm smiling all over.
2.26.2008
electro's camping adventure

Electro went camping at Anawangin Beach in Zambales this weekend. He tried to cross the sea to Capones Island to greet Mr. Lighthouse. Alas, the boat couldn't get near enough and Electro did not know how to swim from boat to shore. Instead, he contented himself looking at glorious rock formations bathed in gold. Electro will keep you posted about his adventures and misadventures in the days to come. Now he just needs rest. :)
2.20.2008
1.19.2008
1.07.2008
my elctro is not busted afterall. woohoo!





12.17.2007
impact

My article on hunger, malnutrition and our Institute's Sagip-Bata feeding program has been published in the December issue of Impact magazine. Grab your copies at any National Bookstore outlet now. Or... you can check out the pdf version here.
The revised version is also uploaded at collectivelens.com, a site that promotes social change through photographs. Click here to view story and photos.
For those of you who can spare even a small amount this Christmas, our Institute is open for any kind of donation (cash, check, rice, milk, books etc.). Please call us at (02) 426-6001 loc 4663, email us at jcarroll@ateneo.edu for inquiries. Thanks!
12.05.2007
projekt desap

SURFACING: A Photo Project on the Lives of the Families of Desaparecidos
A photograph is regarded as a powerful tool for communicating ideas in a way that a written or oral account cannot. A photograph is not hindered by language, nor does it expect its viewers to be educated or literate. The language that a photograph speaks can be understood by anybody. It is with the acknowledgment of this power that we deemed it appropriate to use photographs as a tool for human rights advocacy.
We intend to contribute to the continuing effort of sustaining and heightening public awareness and consciousness on the issue of enforced disappearances. By mounting exhibits and showing photo projections, we also intend to give a human face to the stories and struggles of the families of the disappeared (desaparecidos). We strongly believe that we can reach out to more people by telling their stories through images.
SURFACING, the photographers' initiative is headed by a small working group of student photographers with advice from professional photojournalists and in coordination with the Free Jonas Burgos Movement (FJBM). FJBM is a loose network of individuals seeking for the surfacing and release of Jonas Burgos, who was abducted last April, by suspected military operatives. It also speaks against human rights abuses, in particular, of other enforced disappearances of activists in the country.
This initiative is part of a growing Artists Response against the human rights abuses of the Arroyo administration. Parallel efforts are currently being undertaken by independent and mainstream filmmakers, poets, artists and musicians. All these initiatives will culminate in a Human Rights Festival on Human Rights Day, December 10.
PROJEKT DESAP can be seen at the following venues:
- The video wall of Kontra Agos: A Resistance Films Festival which runs from December 5 to 9 at Robinsons Galleria IndieSine.
- Larawanology on December 9, 3 - 7 p.m at MRT North Avenue Station.
- Human Rights Festival, December 10 at Plaza Miranda, Quiapo
Screenings for Kontra Agos listed here: http://www.kontra-agos.blogspot.com
12.03.2007
a revolutionary weekend
This weekend, it was not Trillanes who inspired me. It was, instead, very dilligent and passionate individuals who humbly do their job to make other lives better each day. The possiblity of checkpoints, roadblocks and being mistaken for a rebel insurgents didn't deter Lai and I (in our very you-look-like-you-didn't-take-a-bath-for-a-week look) to travel five hours to hold a meeting with a community in Sitio Kanawan, Morong, Bataan. The community was forming a people's organization and they needed community workers to help out in the initial stages of organizational development.
Kuya Borms, who has a BA and MA in philosophy and a doctorate on
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BCISTI), an NGO which assists women and the Aeta community in Morong to use organic natural resources and develop food and cosmetic products. (Photo 2: Lai and Bulak. Lai works for Got Heart Foundation which partners with BCISTI in the development and marketing of their products. Bulak is the friendly housedog who seems to be well-fed indeed.)(Photo 3: On the way to Sitio Kanawan Photo 4: Kuya Borms and Lai listen to the community president, Kuya Tony, as they explore ideas on eco-tourism and production of green charcoal-- an environment-friendly charcoal made of fallen twigs and cogon grass. Currenlty, there is only one producer of green charcoal in the country and seventy establishments that use it).
BTPI is a very peaceful place. Houses are far in between. There is an ample amount of greenery. Being up in the mountain, the weather is cool and there is a steady flow of fresh air. I imagine it to be a great haven for writers. I would definitely get some work done here. I was not surprised then to meet Kuya Uly, THE number two botanist in the Philippines, who is finishing his thesis here while teaching Aeta children about plants so they do not lose their tradition of practicing alternative medicine. The reason Kuya Uly is second and not first, I learned is that he discovered a very rare species of orchid in one of his treks up the mountain only to find out that someone else, an older scientist, discovered it only months before he did. No matter, Kuya Uly is young and I think in a few years time he will be THE number one botanist in the Philippines-- that is if he doesn't get lost for good in the mountains. The man is very keen on analyzing details but not so much on the bigger picture and there were a lot of stories about him getting lost for days in the wilderness with just salt, water and some rice as provisions.
(Photo 5: Kuya Uly looking lost. Photo 6: THE number two botanist in the Phlippines talks with THE National Scientist Dr. Luli Cruz, master and commander of BCISTI. Diptherocarp, COX1 and COX2 are only a few of the words that are staples in these geniuses' talk. They usually mention plants in scientific terms. And it's not bragging. It's normal fare.)
(Photo 9. AHRC lawyers and paralegals sight-seeing at the hanging bridge. This bridge connects the barangay with the Aeta community and was built when the Aetas were relocated from the BTPI compound in the 70's to give way to the Vietnamese refugees.)

(Photo 10: The view from the hanging bridge. At high noon, it is already something. I wonder how it would look like at dusk. Photo 11: That's me contemplating a hundred-meter free fall)
Lai's and my trip ended where the AHRC people's trip began--at this bridge. Like true social development workers, we had to get back to Manila Saturday afternoon to catch other Sunday work obligations. It was a very rich weekend despite the fact I hadn't even gone up the mountain and met the community yet. I definitely will return to this place, and hopefully, be able to document the lives of the Aetas and the people who help in ensuring they have a fighting chance of living humanely, unrestricted by lack of resources and social discrimination.
Social change can happen through revolution but it can also happen eventually through a total investment of the self in honest work and a dogged pursuit of social justice.
11.20.2007
take a free sip
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I never planned to take photography seriously. But I guess the Supreme Being has a way of setting up a hint of direction for my wayward life.
Introducing: SIP, the first ever cafe lifestyle magazine in the
11.13.2007
major lightworks
Something is bound to go wrong when a novice like me tries to fix melted light seals by herself, although with advice from the experts. These have been shot with my Electro gsn 35 using Kodak Max 400 expired film while Melai and I were catching up on work last Sunday. I think I need to redo the process of stuffing mousepad foam into the grooves around the camera door and pasting some into the latches all over again. Would you look at that! Sigh. Anybody knows what I must've done wrong? Help!


11.08.2007
Susan Sontag: On Photography
These are excerpts from Susan Sontag's book On Photography. 3di's Ranulfo sent me the link and I find it very insightful and thought-provoking. I'd like to read the whole book. Okay people, it's official. I'm starting my 2007 Christmas wish list with this at number 1.
"Humankind lingers unregenerately in Plato's cave, still reveling, its age-old habit, in mere images of the truth. But being educated by photographs is not like being educated by older, more artisanal images. For one thing, there are a great many more images around, claiming our attention. The inventory started in 1839 and since then just about everything has been photographed, or so it seems. This very insatiability of the photographing eye changes the terms of confinement in the cave, our world. In teaching us a new visual code, photographs alter and enlarge our notions of what is worth looking at and what we have a right to observe. They are a grammar and, even more importantly, an ethics of seeing. Finally, the most grandiose result of the photographic enterprise is to give us the sense that we can hold the whole world in our heads -- as an anthology of images.
To collect photographs is to collect the world. Movies and television programs light up walls, flicker, and go out; but with still photographs the image is also an object, lightweight, cheap to produce, easy to carry about, accumulate, store. In Godard's Les Carabiniers (1963), two sluggish lumpen-peasants are lured into joining the King's Army by the promise that they will be able to loot, rape, kill, or do whatever else they please to the enemy, and get rich. But the suitcase of booty that Michel-Ange and Ulysse triumphantly bring home, years later, to their wives turns out to contain only picture postcards, hundreds of them, of Monuments, Department Stores, Mammals, Wonders of Nature, Methods of Transport, Works of Art, and other classified treasures from around the globe. Godard's gag vividly parodies the equivocal magic of the photographic image., Photographs are perhaps the most mysterious of all the objects that make up, and thicken, the environment we recognize as modern. Photographs really are experience captured, and the camera is the ideal arm of consciousness in its acquisitive mood.
To photograph is to appropriate the thing photographed. It means putting oneself into a certain relation to the world that feels like knowledge -- and, therefore, like power. A now notorious first fall into alienation, habituating people to abstract the world into printed words, is supposed to have engendered that surplus of Faustian energy and psychic damage needed to build modern, inorganic societies. But print seems a less treacherous form of leaching out the world, of turning it into a mental object, than photographic images, which now provide most of the knowledge people have about the look of the past and the reach of the present. What is written about a person or an event is frankly an interpretation, as are handmade visual statements, like paintings and drawings. Photographed images do not seem to be statements about the world so much as pieces of it, miniatures of reality that anyone can make or acquire.
Photographs, which fiddle with the scale of the world, themselves get reduced, blown up, cropped, retouched, doctored, tricked out. They age, plagued by the usual ills of paper objects; they disappear; they become valuable, and get bought and sold; they are reproduced. Photographs, which package the world, seem to invite packaging. They are stuck in albums, framed and set on tables, tacked on walls, projected as slides. Newspapers and magazines feature them; cops alphabetize them; museums exhibit them; publishers compile them.
For many decades the book has been the most influential way of arranging (and usually miniaturizing) photographs, thereby guaranteeing them longevity, if not immortality -- photographs are fragile objects, easily torn or mislaid -- and a wider public. The photograph in a book is, obviously, the image of an image. But since it is, to begin with, a printed, smooth object, a photograph loses much less of its essential quality when reproduced in a book than a painting does. Still, the book is not a wholly satisfactory scheme for putting groups of photographs into general circulation. The sequence in which the photographs are to be looked at is proposed by the order of pages, but nothing holds readers to the recommended order or indicates the amount of time to be spent on each photograph. Chris Marker's film, Si j'avais quatre dromadaires (1966), a brilliantly orchestrated meditation on photographs of all sorts and themes, suggests a subtler and more rigorous way of packaging (and enlarging) still photographs. Both the order and the exact time for looking at each photograph are imposed; and there is a gain in visual legibility and emotional impact. But photographs transcribed in a film cease to be collectable objects, as they still are when served up in books.
Photographs furnish evidence. Something we hear about, but doubt, seems proven when we're shown a photograph of it. In one version of its utility, the camera record incriminates. Starting with their use by the Paris police in the murderous roundup of Communards in June 1871, photographs became a useful tool of modern states in the surveillance and control of their increasingly mobile populations. In another version of its utility, the camera record justifies. A photograph passes for incontrovertible proof that a given thing happened. The picture may distort; but there is always a presumption that something exists, or did exist, which is like what's in the picture. Whatever the limitations (through amateurism) or pretensions (through artistry) of the individual photographer, a photograph -- any photograph -- seems to have a more innocent, and therefore more accurate, relation to visible reality than do other mimetic objects. Virtuosi of the noble image like Alfred Stieglitz and Paul Strand, composing mighty, unforgettable photographs decade after decade, still want, first of all, to show something "out there," just like the Polaroid owner for whom photographs are a handy, fast form of note-taking, or the shutterbug with a Brownie who takes snapshots as souvenirs of daily life.
While a painting or a prose description can never be other than a narrowly selective interpretation, a photograph can be treated as a narrowly selective transparency. But despite the presumption of veracity that gives all photographs authority, interest, seductiveness, the work that photographers do is no generic exception to the usually shady commerce between art and truth. Even when photographers are most concerned with mirroring reality, they are still haunted by tacit imperatives of taste and conscience. The immensely gifted members of the Farm Security Administration photographic project of the late 1930s (among them Walker Evans, Dorothea Lange, Ben Shahn, Russell Lee) would take dozens of frontal pictures of one of their sharecropper subjects until satisfied that they had gotten just the right look on film -- the precise expression on the subject's face that supported their own notions about poverty, light, dignity, texture, exploitation, and geometry. In deciding how a picture should look, in preferring one exposure to another, photographers are always imposing standards on their subjects. Although there is a sense in which the camera does indeed capture reality, not just interpret it, photographs are as much an interpretation of the world as paintings and drawings are. Those occasions when the taking of photographs is relatively undiscriminating, promiscuous, or self-effacing do not lessen the didacticism of the whole enterprise. This very passivity -- and ubiquity -- of the photographic record is photography's "message," its aggression.
Images which idealize (like most fashion and animal photography) are no less aggressive than work which makes a virtue of plainness (like class pictures, still lifes of the bleaker sort, and mug shots). There is an aggression implicit in every use of the camera. This is as evident in the 1840s and 1850s, photography's glorious first two decades, as in all the succeeding decades, during which technology made possible an ever increasing spread of that mentality which looks at the world as a set of potential photographs. Even for such early masters as David Octavius Hill and Julia Margaret Cameron who used the camera as a means of getting painterly images, the point of taking photographs was a vast departure from the aims of painters. From its start, photography implied the capture of the largest possible number of subjects. Painting never had so imperial a scope. The subsequent industrialization of camera technology only carried out a promise inherent in photography from its very beginning: to democratize all experiences by translating them into images.
That age when taking photographs required a cumbersome and expensive contraption -- the toy of the clever, the wealthy, and the obsessed -- seems remote indeed from the era of sleek pocket cameras that invite anyone to take pictures. The first cameras, made in France and England in the early 1840s, had only inventors and buffs to operate them. Since there were then no professional photographers, there could not be amateurs either, and taking photographs had no clear social use; it was a gratuitous, that is, an artistic activity, though with few pretensions to being an art. It was only with its industrialization that photography came into its own as art. As industrialization provided social uses for the operations of the photographer, so the reaction against these uses reinforced the self-consciousness of photography-as-art."







